Thursday, June 07, 2007
): okay im not exactly feeling great. im actually annoyed but disappointed and feeling quite resentful. it's been a long time since i felt down. today was wasted. okay not exactly. i read sab's book WHERE RAINBOWS END. it was great i woke up at twelve thirty five today and read that till six. when i was supposed to be studying. oh and i just watched the devil wears prada. my day is wasted since im supposed to mug? i hate it when my mom breathes down my neck about how i should study and study and do well. how i should brush up on my maths. she's never satisfied, but i know she just wants the best for me. sighs. life's a drag. i think i should stop trying to have a life even though i know i never had one. okay whatever. someone pls make me happy. you know as much as my mom gives me freedom, im not free actually. okay there i go again, it's a wonder how much i think. i hate thinking. i miss being busy with band and all. i miss the times when me lyd and inez would walk out tog and do silly retarded things. i miss all the things that you used to make me laugh. i miss doing silly things with hancaiyi during practice while beat-rice would poke us. i miss lower sec days. even though everyone hated us but life was silly and rather funny. i hate it now where everything everyone's concerned of is mugging hard. it's a crime to let loose and have some fun. it is bad to even go out and do other things besides studying. wtf. and do you know how much it hurts when again and again you proved that i don't mean anything to you? no you don't. why thank you so much.
anyway i love cleo bcos she brings drama to my life;
I WNA BE INSIDE YOUR HEAVEN.
): okay im not exactly feeling great. im actually annoyed but disappointed and feeling quite resentful. it's been a long time since i felt down. today was wasted. okay not exactly. i read sab's book WHERE RAINBOWS END. it was great i woke up at twelve thirty five today and read that till six. when i was supposed to be studying. oh and i just watched the devil wears prada. my day is wasted since im supposed to mug? i hate it when my mom breathes down my neck about how i should study and study and do well. how i should brush up on my maths. she's never satisfied, but i know she just wants the best for me. sighs. life's a drag. i think i should stop trying to have a life even though i know i never had one. okay whatever. someone pls make me happy. you know as much as my mom gives me freedom, im not free actually. okay there i go again, it's a wonder how much i think. i hate thinking. i miss being busy with band and all. i miss the times when me lyd and inez would walk out tog and do silly retarded things. i miss all the things that you used to make me laugh. i miss doing silly things with hancaiyi during practice while beat-rice would poke us. i miss lower sec days. even though everyone hated us but life was silly and rather funny. i hate it now where everything everyone's concerned of is mugging hard. it's a crime to let loose and have some fun. it is bad to even go out and do other things besides studying. wtf. and do you know how much it hurts when again and again you proved that i don't mean anything to you? no you don't. why thank you so much.
anyway i love cleo bcos she brings drama to my life;
I WNA BE INSIDE YOUR HEAVEN.