so many things has changed in this short span of time. relationships, people, the world.i changed, in some way for the better, in some way for the worse.you know what i hate about myself? i hate how im such a coward.that i escape confrontation that i escape reality constantly, if not almost every living moment.things i do not like, i shut them out. i am horrible that way. i am weak that way.i am lousy with speech. i cannot express myself coherently in speech(though im pretty sure i can in writing,right? hmm.)i am lousy that way. the more i care about something, the more i show indifference. i am really that lousy. it's pathetic. despite knowing that actions speak louder that words, i preach, i don't practise. i am horrible because i am number one complain queen. i give up things without a fight. that's why my life is full of regrets. i think im a really lousy person that's blessed with so many chances. sigh. i wish i had more courage to make things happen.

lousy lousy boo. i made a decision last night&now it's wavered again. horrible horrible.

right, to bishan library to mug with Shermin with only four hours of sleep BUT i was rather productive okay yay!SUBWAY for lunch (: then walking around aimlessly. i have not started on math so horrible me decided not to appear for math mock ppr tmr like it's rather redundant since the only thing i revised so far for math is binomial theorem. like wow right? very good,tiffany, very good. you are awesome! :D told you im lousy.


i wish i could face up to my feelings. like honest&plain for once. please, i need strength.

/edit; i still want you back.